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    August 29

    能不写这个么!

      又失眠了,前几天好不容易把生物钟从美国东部时间调到了北京时间,今天有失眠了.7点多钟躺在床上看电视不知不觉地睡着了,9点多一点起来就不困了.睡觉时候做了个梦,梦见王哲回来了.刚才躺在床上总是在不自觉地想她.虽然我总是和朋友说我觉得自己还年轻没想过要和谁真的在一起,可说实话和王哲在一起的时候我真的想过.她是我唯一想过以后要结婚的女孩.直到现在我还一直幻想着.也只有他在我身边的时候我才会有一种主动付出的责任感.我现在越来越觉得命运是故意让我和小凡在一起的,我们在一起就像我和王哲在一起一样,只不过这次我扮演王哲的角色小凡扮演我的角色.我也从这次的角色转换中明白了当时我的幼稚.的确,两个心理差距如此大的人是不可能在一起的.在这一年里我经历了工作、巡演、上学的大起大落,也长大了不少.想起那时候的我真是好笑.
      现在住在奥运村每天都能看到各种运动员,还有就是我们小区竟然有卖玻璃瓶装芬达的!

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    August 21

    每次写标题都对我是种折磨

      现在是5点08分,往常这会天已经大亮了,明显08年的秋天已经来了。日子过得真快转眼间一个暑假过去了,又要回到学校了。一个正当年的年轻人在一个空荡荡的两居室里独自生活了两个月什么事情也没干。朋友们怕我孤单总是来陪我,其实他们根本不知道我一点也不觉得孤独,或者说我在享受着孤独。基本上每天都在失眠中度过,好像把自己从上小学到现在经历的事情都回忆了一遍。我突然发现我的记性还不错。又开始岔了……
      这两天发现很多人都在一直看我的blog,可很奇怪为什么没有人给我留言呢!
      刚才有失眠了,在cctv6看了一部电影《桃花灿烂》。电影讲了一个表面平静却轰轰烈烈的故事,但如果简化这个故事可能我们每一个人都会经历过,有过同样或类似的感受。现实让我们放弃了最初的梦想,每个人都戴上了面具,当你揭开了他们的面具会发现每个人的眼睛都是肿的。爱情故事总是在让人们将虚伪进行下去,所有的爱情故事都是在讲两个爱人因某事不能继续下去。但如果真的让他们在一起了他们真的能长久的生活在一起吗?得不到的永远是好的,我知道我忘不掉王哲是因为我得不到她,就算得到了我也担心她会离开,我放弃小凡是因为它太容易得到了,就算自己离开了我也清楚她会回来,除非是我赶她走。初恋的时候女朋友问我什么叫爱,我回答的天花乱坠,现在想想其实得不到的才叫爱……
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    August 10

    These days off were good

      刚才终于把自己的心里话说出来了.觉得挺对不住她的,我为了自己的一段等待使他付出了年轻的代价.但我还是要追求属于自己的生活,连我妈多说我太自私了,不管怎么样事情发展到了这个程度我只能这样了,我也给了她考虑的空间.老孬最近帮我联系了一个,感觉还不错,希望这回能够互相快乐些吧……
      前几天王哲给我发邮件了,说了说她现在在美国的状况.说实话真帮不上她什么.希望她在美国顺利快乐吧.
      昨天看了奥运开幕式,开头的<<击缶而歌>>真是挺震撼的,泱泱大国的气魄和从容一下子表现出来了.舞者在画卷上的作画表现出了我们民族艺术的写意之美.到了升国旗那段开始就太典型的老谋子作品了,没完没了地找孩子作点缀.越看越觉得内容有点空,没有足够的深度.连贯性也不是很好.我想这与我们现在社会的现状有很大关系,文艺生活和全民重视程度极度匮乏.最后的点燃圣火也是缺乏点缀.我想作为北京的硬件的确是国际标准的,但在软件方面北京还没有做到国际标准,北京就像是个农村来的暴发户,没素质就是有钱.现在看来我们完全的和国外接轨还需要至少20年的时间.现在住在奥运村旁边,看烟火还真是方便.
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      Finally have their say the truth. Think she's very sorry, I wait for the sake of its own section of the young to enable him to pay the price, but I still have to pursue their own life, even my mother to say I was too selfish , In any case things to this extent I can only this, I also gave her the space to consider. Nao old recently helped me a link, I feel pretty good, hope that this time it can be more mutual happiness……
       A few days ago, I e-mail to Wang Zhe, said that she is now in the U.S. position. Bangbu Shang She said what the truth really. I hope she smoothly Happy Bar in the United States.
       Yesterday saw the opening ceremony of the Olympic Games, beginning of the <<Play Fou and song>> is really quite shocking, great country and the spirit demonstrated by the sudden calm. Dancers in the picture on the painting of our nation has demonstrated the art of freehand brushwork Of the United States. To start on that part of the flag-raising is a typical Lao Mouzi works, go to find children for embellishment. Yuekan Yue feel a bit empty the contents, there was not enough depth. Coherence is not very good. I think this And the status of our society now has a lot of arts, culture, life and the people extremely short attention. Finally the flame is lit the lack of embellishment. I would like to Beijing as the hardware is indeed international standards, but in terms of software Beijing has not done International standards, Beijing is just like a rural to the upstart, the quality is not the money. Now it seems that we complete convergence and abroad also need at least 20 years. Now living in the Olympic Village next to see pyrotechnics really is convenient.
     
    August 01

    最近过得日子

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      前段时间一直没上网,也就没更新过.放假了没事干去IKEA给自己的小窝置办了点新家具,旧的全扔了,感觉屋子有点空.弄的老孬号称要在我的房子里开遥控车.有时候自己一个人住在一个空空的房子里觉得特别的孤胆,真体会到一个人吃饱了一家子不饿的感觉了,其实也不错,多亏老孬老来找我喝酒.越来越觉得他是知己了,认识了13年的朋友.其实我们都很不容易,也一直为了自己的梦想打拼着,如今当时的小学同学聚会真的是每个人都有美好前途,清华北大北师大的一大帮,美国英国的也是一大帮.老孬练体育也很有成就,真的是北师大实验小学96级3班出来的没差的.希望我们以后越走越好,越走越远!
      前几天没事干溜达去鸟巢.看见那些站岗的军人们顶着烈日真是辛苦!
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